當不當兵?

lately I began to revisit the decision regarding heading back to Taiwan and fulfill my obligation to my "COUNTRY".

I hate this topic. Simply put, i am trapped in between two options that i might regret either way in the future. Aside from the age issue, the fact that i will be missing 2 years of my life serving a 'cause' (?) that i am not even sure about~ Going to war is really the last thing on my mind (heck, at least i will be doing something!)

option 1: going back to Taiwan and join the military for two years...by the time i am done, i will be close to 31 years old. Back to Canada?? Will i still be able to get a job? Will I be able to fit in again? Do i need to get back to school? Is it still gonna be a Torre gov? (ha, who cares~) Will i still be intellectually engaged and critically stimulated ( not that i am now, but...) enough to dive right into the academics? Will i even come back?

option 2: Stay in Canada and get on with my life. I might as well erase all my memory of Taiwan so the next 12 years won't be so hard to endure~ ( i was half joking with mom on the phone saying that i rather go back for the weddings not the funerals...yet, sadly, there is some truth to it.) Family, friends...family mostly..... what am i going to do with them? I guess i can always fill up my life with work so that i don't even think about it.... 12 years can be pretty short, right? (right..)

so, what now?


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